After all that waiting my express delivery finally arrived….. Healthy and kicking in full gusto.
A baby Boy.
wee bit disappointed since it was a gurl methot all along.
but the lil termagnet already has the whole house wrapped around his teeny fingers.
and lo my world as i knew it has changed.
the kindle gathers dust as the NYT best sellers await my return
the oven lies unused. the fragrance of grilled chicken and cakes replaced by his poopy and his indescribable body scent which even beats the fragrance of the first rains on wet mud.
where an earthquake couldnt rouse me a whimper does
i’m no longer the subject of an envious sigh accompanied by a snide ‘look at her sleep, the sleep of the innocent’ …..
i’m on my bed listening to the sounds from the cherub…heavy breathing, a gargle, a snortle, gentle gurgles
i watch him for signs of hunger and get his pouts and smiles, eyes still closed
i pick him up to nurse him, wonder if he’ll be thankful for being born or ungrateful for the life given
i wait for his eyes to shut but see him explore the world with round, wondering eyes and a thoughtful frown.
i walk the night
warmth lulling him to sleep
i do what millions of mothers do around the world
what generations of women did before me transgressing continents and culture
i do what women will continue to do long after i’m gone
i’m a mother now
i have come full circle